Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Just thinking!

As I was feeding Tanner tonight imagine this. I got a little emotional - wierd huh? Yes I had a few tears. I was overwhelmed with gratitude for the blessings my Heavenly Father has given me. I was also thinking about what is going to happen with my Tanner. We are in limbo and since I have not been through this process before it leaves a lot up to the imagination. Anyway, whenever I experience more than one emotion at a time I usually cry (for all of you who know me my multi tasking skills - well - Suck.) I guess my emotions are part of my inability to multi task. Anyway so I am feeding my baby boy and start to get teary and my sweet little girl comes to me and says mom whats wrong why are you crying? I said I was grateful and I was hoping that Tanner gets to stay with us forever. She said "Forever and ever, I love baby Tanner! Mom can I need a Hug!" Just another giant blessing from my Heavenly Father. I don't know why but her words and hug really comforted me. Thank goodness that she did not listen the million times I had told her to go to bed.

I can not believe how much my girls have blossomed in the last week. Brooklyn is such a help. I don't think that I have been allowed to feed the babies for 2 days. That is definitely Brooklyns job and she get so teary when I ask her if I could have a turn. She loves her brothers so much. Then there is Allie. Oh my Gosh! She has changed like I can't believe. I feel like she is so much older. She always loves to give her brothers hugs she is comprehending so much and every time she looks at me with her unbelievably gorgeous eyes I can't help but think that I am in trouble when she gets to High School. I love her buns so much and it makes me sad that I can see her growing up and maturing so quickly now. I want her to stay my little Al's.

So last thing that has nothing to do with anything except that I don't know how I will survive it - My husband pointed out that all 4 of my children will all be in High School at the same time. When I think about that the next year almost looks easy. I guess I'll be praying more than I thought :)

4 comments:

Tiffany Alldredge Smith said...

Oh Jaimee - I'm just so happy for you. I know it's hard, and you've got a hard road ahead as well - but what blessings!! No one deserves them more than you. You are AMAZING!! I am SO, SO, SO happy for you!!

Lindsey said...
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Lindsey said...

I love you sister!!! your little ones are the luckiest ever to have you and jon! i know Tanner and Allie will be a part of our family for time and all eternity! you are the best mother, daughter, wife, sister, and best friend i know! love you!!! you are one lucky sucker!!!

Brandon and Lindsay said...

Jaimee if anybody could do it, you can! Keep up the good work, mama! We are so happy for you guys and praying that everything will work out for your little -I mean BIG- Family!
Can't wait to come visit next week!!!