Reality Is Setting In!

FOUR KIDS IS HARD WORK. I always wondered why people with children stop going to church. How could they do that, isn't that when they need church most? Well now I know. It sucks. With three kids that are not yet in nursery it makes the whole time as far from spiritual as it could be. But I know it is where I am supposed to be, so I will continue to go.

Church is not the only difficult thing. Today I had to go to the store and get formula. Tanner has had a horrible daiper rash, Allie a ruuny nose and the runs, and every time I attempted to leave the house I would have to change another daiper. Now just the thought of hauling all 4 kids to the grocery store makes me cry a little bit. (My sweet father-in-law ended up going for me.)

I suppose it could be more difficult. I could be pregnant. Which would be my biggest nightmare coming true at this point. As Brooklyn says "That would make me so sad!"

Now that I have complained I will change my tune and say that I do know that I am extremely blessed. I love my kiddo's more than anything. I have amazing friends and family that have helped me organize my life so I am capable of doing this. Eventhough church is difficult everyone in primary is so helpful with my children and makes it possible for me to serve in my calling. Most important I have an unbelievable husband. He just now called to check in and see how I was doing. I explained my day and he asked me to write a list of things he could do each night to make things easier on me for the next day. I am such a lucky wife.

I know this will be a hard road but I have never second guessed any of my decisions. This is my wonderful family and I am nothing but grateful for them.