It is not that big of a deal but today is the day that we take Tanner in for DNA testing to see if the alleged father is really his biological parent. I have been pretending this day wouldn't come now here it is. I have so many mixed emotions. What do I want the outcome to be(I know it is not up to me) but I don't know what to pray for. So many decisions will be made based upon this test. However I pray that the ultimate decision will keep my little Buddah Boy in our home.
I am happy things are moving along. I am scared things may change. I am sad that I have to do this. It hurts I can not make these decisions, he is my little boy. I would do the test anyway. He deserves to have a name of his biological parent but I hate being told that I have no choice.
I shouldn't have blogged when I started I was just a little sad now I am so teary. Jon always tells me I live in a fantasy land and it is so true. I prefer not to think about CPS, Biological Parents, DNA tests, Adoptive families from New Jersey, etc. When I actually sit down and write and think about reality it hurts. I will stop now and in 3 hours I will return to may fantastic fantasy world and not return to reality until we get the results of the test.
Pesto and Burrata Flatbread with Nectarines
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[image: Peach and Pesto Flatbread from our best bites]
This flatbread makes use of nectarines (or peaches) in prime season. Where
I live, I consistently get...
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4 comments:
I like to live in the fantasy land too. I believe he's yours. I pray that he will be one day officially.
I think it's great that you are able to live in a fantasy land! It enables you to be an amazing parent to your wonderful children even though you are going through so much. If you were tense and sad all the time - the kids would know it. I think the way you are able to push that all aside is a real talent and blessing!! You are absolutly INCREADIBLE!!! We'll be praying for you!!
Wow....how scary! I sure do hope it all works out in your favor. I can't imagine getting attached to such a perfect and innocent baby and then have the fear of losing him. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers Jaimee! Good luck with everything. Go back to living in fantasy land! It's ok to do that! It makes us happy!
Now you have me teary! I can't even imagine what you are going thru! No matter what happens, Tanner has been blessed to have you and you to have him! We'll pray that Tanner will be able to stay with the family that has been caring for him and loving him!
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