Wednesday, April 20, 2011

The Countdown Begins!



2 WEEKS that is it 2 WEEKS from today Tanner will officially be ours. I am overwhelmed with gratitude and love for this little man of mine. The nights spent in tears wondering if he will be ours are most definitely over. HE IS OURS! He is so special. Each of my children are so unique that our home would not be complete without all of them here together. Now all my prayers and fasts have been answered. I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father who through this all has taught me lessons that I could not have learned any other way. I have always felt some sense of control of the things that happened in my life. This was the 1st time I knew that I had no control. I could only believe, only have faith and leave everything up to my Heavenly Father. No decision I made would change the outcome that my Heavenly Father had for Tanner. It was terrifying but it brought me closer to God and made me realize he is in control. He has a plan for each of us and although at times life seems difficult to understand he is mindful of us and loves us. I am grateful that his plan for Tanner is that he is our son. I pray everyday that I will be the mom my children need, that I help them become everything that God intends them to become. I am so grateful for my children. I can not wait until we are all in the temple and we are all sealed together.

2 comments:

Tiffany Alldredge Smith said...

I'm so excited for you!! He's such an amazing little guy - and just MEANT to be part of your family! I wish we could be there to help you celebrate - but know that we are thinking of you! Love you! Give him squeezes from us!!

Jaimi said...

Finding it hard to swallow the lump in my throat while reading this as the feelings you shared resonate in me as well.

So excited for both of your happy days!